February 18, 2008 - 165.0 - ARGH!

I tried this weekend, I really did. For most of the hours this weekend, I tried hard. In fact, Saturday, I did really well - but didn’t lose any weight.

Friday and Sunday I did good - until around 11pm when I start to get hungry. Now, I know that in order to lose weight, I have to go to bed hungry. But this weekend, I didn’t find the willpower to say “no” to the Doritos. Or the chocolate that my mom brought us for Valentine’s Day.

So I gained 2.5 lbs back. Not good.

I know that ultimately success is going to be more likely on my dedication to exercise, which I’ve done all of about 1 time since this whole Fat Fight started. But I did get really sick. And I’m still experiencing fatigue from the sickness. In fact, I read that flu fatigue can last up to 2 weeks after the flu! Not good!

I’m not talking about being a little tired. I’m talking about serious, my legs feel like bowling balls, I feel like I was hit by a train fatigue. And I experience fatigue a lot - more than just being sick. For a variety of reasons that I’m not going to bore you with right now.

So I dragged myself out of bed and made myself be more active today. I don’t feel as fatigued, so that’s good.

Oh - and I watched my children eat Baskin Robbins ice cream today - and had nothing.

Let’s be clear - I no longer expect to win this competition. In fact, I really came close to just calling it quits. But then I realize - contest or no contest - I need to lose weight. I do not have big bones or a big frame. In fact, my frame is quite small and all this added weight is really too much for it. No wonder I’m so fatigued!